There are a lot of myths around smoking weed, and a lot of misconceptions. Depending on who you are and what you believe about smoking weed, you may consider it an illicit “gateway drug” or a medicinal gift of nature. When it comes to weed, perception is good portion of it, and individual responses and experiences are a lot of it, too.
No matter what you believe about weed, it does have an effect on your brain chemistry. If you are someone who has smoked a lot of weed for a long time, these effects can be pretty huge. Quitting weed can cause some powerful but temporary feelings that aren’t always easy to deal with.
Weed Was Running My Life
I wasn’t the happiest person in the world when I started smoking weed, and while smoking didn’t solve all my problems, it made me feel better. For years I smoked on a regular basis because it felt good. It didn’t interfere with my life and it honestly didn’t seem to be a problem.
Over time, though, it felt like it was getting in the way. It interfered with my job performance, I was being less social and it just seemed like I depended on it too much. Because my social life had dwindled down to just about nothing, I had no one to talk to. The few friends I still had were stoners like me, just moving through life and obviously as lost as I was. They didn’t want to hear about how I was feeling, it ruined their high.
Quitting Weed And Depression
I made the decision to quit and felt pretty good about it, but things got really rough. I couldn’t sleep, my appetite was off and I felt horrible. It seemed like without weed I was a depressed, nervous wreck who couldn’t socialize without being at least a little stoned. And, it seemed like each day that went by things got worse.
I fell deeper into my depression before finally getting some help for my problem. I learned that since THC stays in your body for longer than most other drugs, symptoms of withdrawal such as depression and anxiety may not fully show up until the drug has left your system. This is why things seemed to be getting worse over time, not better.
It wasn’t until I tried to stop that I realized how much I had been smoking, and just how stuck I was. My world was small. I wasn’t going out and doing cool stuff. My world revolved around weed and television and it just wasn’t that fun anymore. But now I didn’t know what to do with myself. I was exhausted, bummed and lost. It actually made me kind of angry, because I knew a couple other people who had quit and didn’t seem to be having this problem. What was wrong with me?
The answer was nothing. Everyone is different. Not everyone is going to experience depression after they quit, but it’s totally common. For me, it hit pretty hard and made it difficult to stay away from it.
After numerous tries, I finally found a solution to my problem. I ran into a friend who shared his own experience, and he told me what had worked for him. We’re all different, and what works for one person doesn’t necessarily work for another, but I gave it a try.
Getting Back On Track
I’d been smoking weed daily for over a decade, so it makes sense that leaving it behind would bring up some feelings of sadness and loss. Also, I didn’t really know how to socialize without it. I had been smoking since my early teens, so it had been kind of a social crutch for me. I had to learn how to function in daily life without it, and it wasn’t going to happen overnight.
Talking to people helped. Educating myself on the symptoms that I might experience helped, too. Getting back into doing things with other like-minded people was also helpful. I had been isolating and it was creating a lot of my depression. I felt like there wasn’t enough weed in the world to get rid of the loneliness that I felt, but once I started reaching out to people, things got better. It wasn’t until after I developed a better understanding of how isolation and loneliness contribute to the problem that I realized how much I needed others. And, I needed to change my mindset and habits. I’m so glad I found a solution that helped me see my pot problem for what it was and gave me some tools to overcome it.
If you are thinking about quitting, it’s good to have a heads up about how it might make you feel. You might feel down, have trouble sleeping and feel some anxiety. Your brain is going need to recover, and you’re going to have to make some changes. It helps to have people in your corner who support you, and it’s a good idea to develop a strategy or a game plan to help you along the way.
Today, I feel better than ever. I’m not depressed, I’m sleeping at night and I’m out living my life instead of staying stuck in a rut. That is what I wanted, and that is what I’ve got going for myself now.